I’ve learned a lesson this month. About myself.
It’s ok to ask for help.
That was a toughie for me. I am very independent and don’t like to bother others.
But I realized sometimes I need a helping hand.
The second is that I need to be more direct. Funny I know. I am about the most brutally honest person out there. …..well I do know someone more brutally honest than me but she will remain nameless.
….. err OK I know two….maybe three…. ok “birds of a feather thing I know”.
Back on track.
And then I am hurt and disappointed when “they” don’t. And it’s no one’s fault but mine. I am learning if I need something from someone, or I need them to realize something I need to pipe up.
I think I lost two good friends this month because I didn’t do this. I just kept to myself my confusion and hurt about a situation that I know truly no one meant any harm it was just one of those “not seeing things from my perspective” things. And finally when forced to face this fact I felt overwhelmed and extremely hurt that they didn’t get it before it grew into this situation. And well I honestly don’t know where I stand now. I realize there is a lot of hurt on both sides.
Sometimes it helps to write it down to when trying to figure out a solution.
And of course there is always hexing to help the thinking process.